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YAY! I have finally manged to link on to facebook..the little wonders of technology today...one more thing..now weaning baby off breastmilk in the day..so now planning a routine for her to follow. At night after 11pm, she would be able to have BM and early morning hours should she awake. Its tough..sometimes she cries as she was so used my breast but these few days as long as we catch the timing right. She should be able to drink from the bottle and also formula milk (FM). I would like to be able to express out my BM but I consider my working schedule, which might be me alone, its hard for me actually spend time to express it out. So I might have to change Elayna to FM.

Being a FTWM(full time working mom) is much harder than it is. SAHM(Stay at home mom) is not easy either but once you get the hang of it, its actually much easier. I was with my baby at home for a full 3mths till help came along and I enjoy every moment of it. If I could, I would like to continue. But I know that having her will motivate me even further. I used to think that I set an example for others to follow, and now that I have a baby to set example to I have to work even harder and better.

I just hope that I will be able to.For my baby.

Sleeping Habits at 2months 3weeks

Its really amazing how Elayna can sleep. She will still wake up around 1plus 2am for night feeds and subsequently for the next few 2 hour intervals she will wake up and want milk. Thank goodness I do breast feeding! Otherwise I would hate the idea of waking up and making a bottle of milk. Now as I type, H(hubby) is changing her diapers. By the way, pampers S size for her is no good for through the night sleeping. I can reccomend a few if anyone is interested to know. Back to my tale.

As daddy is changing her diapers, she has absolutely no reaction to what is going on with the change. She just woke up for a feed and this girl feeds for less than 15mins and she falls asleep and now that daddy is changing her diapers she can still sleep. Its amazing how these little ones can just sleep through things. I can hear her making small noises but her eyes and her legs are totally closed and not moving.

The most amazing part about her is, depending on how active her day was. She sometimes would cry out or laugh in her sleep. Just in the eariler part as she is about to fall into her deep sleep. Sometimes she would smile, laugh out or pout and cry (which usually is resolved very quickly with some soothing words from mommy). She dreams alot and I sometimes wonder what would her dreams entail. Is she playing in her dreams, what if when she cries whats happening and when she smiles, what actually is going on in her little head? I just get so amazed everyday.

But it has been tough lately on getting a proper sleeping schedule for her. Just the other day, we brought her out for dinner and just that one night spoilt 3days worth of routine. Argh!! I just need to sort it out.And make sure that if a routine is set, we have got to keep to it. Right now,its just hovering between getting her to sleep around 7:30 - 8pm or 10 -11pm. Just gotta go trial and error to know what's best for her.

I just realised that its 4 in the morning and H is nagging at me to sleep. I am multi tasking. Facebook, reading forums all at the same time...hahaha...

New Day with Elayna

Just this morning when I got up, I found my daughter awake and amusing herself in her cot and that was about 7.50am. So immediately I got up worried that she might cry and get upset which she does but to my surprise when I got near her cot, the minute she saw me, she just gave me the biggest smile she could ever give anyone! She was smiling so wide that her eyes closed! Hahaha...naturally I smiled the widest smile I could give her! And I gave her my usual 'good morning' routine. Good morning sunshine, Good morning Elayna and that made her smile even more. This is what happens when she gets enough sleep.

Of course then I knew I had to feed her, being a breast feeding mom I understand the joys of being able to breast feed your own baby but on another note, when I get back to work, even with a breast pump I'm not sure if I will be able to continue breast feeding her cos I don't know if I have the time to pump.

Well lets put that aside.After her milk, I burped her and we continue to play somemore where there were more smiles and laughs. Boy did she enjoy herself. Then it was bathtime.

Elayna has always enjoyed her bath. always silently aware but alert during bathtime. The funniest thing is, no matter hw much preparation I do to let her know I am putting her inthe water she always gets this WIDE EYED look whenever I put her in. But she is fine, she still kicks abit as if she is swimming, its a rather lazy kicking style. Just when she feels like it.hahaha

After her bath, I was putting abit of lotion on her while giving her a slight massage at the same time, putting the ru yi oil(to allow th e wind to come out), wearing her diapers, clothes(she always fusses while putting on clothes) she started to fuss and complain abit. I knew she must be sleepy she usually doesn't complain if she knows I am putting on her diapers. So I changed the topic that I was talking to her about. I told her that I would be faster but she shouldn't be upset so that I can be faster. It worked for a while but soon she begin her starting complains of 'ma..ma' As though she could call me at 2months 3weeks.
So I had to work even faster and when it was done and i carried her up to give her abit more of milk, about 20mins into the feed, she fell asleep.

There you go..She was tired out. I put her down on my bed and laid down beside to assure her that I was not going anywhere. When I gave her my finger to hold on to, she practically gripped it. That was how worried she was about me going away so I waited till she was relaxed then my finger was allowed to leave.

Then she wanted to drink abit more milk, so we both lay down and soon she fell back to sleep and had been sleeping from 11 till now at 1.30pm and still sleeping. I am so proud of her. She usually doesn't take naps but lately I think she is doing better. Later when she wakes up, we will play again. hehehe

Elayna's Day

My baby girl Elayna at 2mths and 3 weeks has the sweetest of smiles but its so hard to capture on picture that most adorable smile. I will try my hardest to capture the special moments and post them on this blog.

Being on maternity leave now gives me time to bond and appreciate these moments I have with my baby girl every single day. Sometimes its really tiring but I know that I am learning more and more about her every single day. I think a lot about what she needs and what she would want from me every day. Being a mum at 28yrs is something that I could not expect at all. It seems like yesterday that I was carrying Elayna in my tummy and I could feel her punches. She was a breech baby which means that she did not turn down at all for me to deliver her naturally. Up till the day that the c-section which was scheduled for her delivery I was still hoping for her to turn down. But the doctor did an Ultra sound and she was still in her breech position, so the c-section had to go ahead.

It was cold in the OT, I could see the temperature in the room was 18degrees and I was only dressed in the operation gown which was open in the back..and boy was it cold!! As I was in the OT prep room the doctor was giving me the low down on how the operation will proceed. And as I was wheeled into the OT I was getting all prepped up for the spinal anestatisic which will make me immobile from the waist down and slowly proceed to make me totally numb everywhere below the neck. Was I afraid?. Nah... It felt quite itchy and I was shivering (which was normal when you are under the spinal.) And slowly I could feel my neck going numb. A screen was pulled up so that I could not see them cutting into me, but I could still feel a slight tugging at my skin around the abdominal area. At the same time I could feel like vomitting and it was another normal feeling to have under the spinal. The purpose here is so that I can bond eariler with the baby by keeping awake throughout the procedure. This way they can show me the baby immediately after she was taken out from my womb. Throughout the whole process, I was wishing that my hubby was there with me so that he could share through every single moment of her birth.

I remember it clearly, she was so loud the minute she was taken out from me. She was wailing away and she was screaming her head off and the doctor was saying that she has a good set of lungs in her. The minute I heard her scream I was wondering how does she look like, was she safe, was she alright and does she have all her digits..etc... all the typical motherly things I could think of. I saw the nurse carrying her out towards the OT prep area to clean her up and I felt as though it was forever before she was brought back to me so that I can have a look at her. I remember holding on to my fatigue to stay awake so that I can see her before I closed my eyes.

Finally I saw her and she was beautiful. Eyes was slightly open and she could see me and I could see her. I kissed her and said Elayna..baby..it was so emotional that I cried. That was my baby and I was so proud of her to have come out so strong and healthy. At that moment all I prayed for was for her to continue be strong and healthy and for me be with her.

I was closed up, and wheeled to the post op room where I was suppose to recover. But I was missing my baby so much. I couldn't wait to go up to the room to see her but I was hovering in and out of alertness and awakeness.

At that moment all I wanted was for my hubby to tell me that baby is fine and wonderful. But I was instead told that I had to stay in recovery ward as it was taking me longer than usual to come off the anesthetic.

To cut the long story short, I was finally brought up to my ward around 3pm and finally got to see my daughter in the evening. And she was beautiful...