Elayna has been real good with vaccinations so far. The last 5in1 she had a slight fever on the first day and then second was all clear. So she had her final 6in1 today so I am monitoring her temp today and tonight. usually the fever pops up at night. So have to be really careful.
Also she still hasn't really put on alot of weight. About 200gms since last mth. Haizzz kinda worried. But one thing i know is that she is happy, having fun and doing well. Other than that she is not gaining weight as much as I expected.
She has started to babble more, chit chat more now. I think she might start to say her first word soon, so amazing. I am so looking forward to talking to her soon. Can I ask for more?
She will be taking her next jab when she turns 15mths but I am considering some of the other jabs so let me go check it out. Hopefully can get her vaccinated. With H1N1 these days, I really have to be more careful and more stringent as her mother. Of course I cannot be too protective, but I think where there can be control measures I will do it.
Hopefully, tonight no fever otherwise sleepless night again like the last time.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Man in the mirror.
These days I think that I have been putting myself in situations where I should not have poked my nose into. Sometimes I think that by caring too much and being too honest and when people cannot take the honesty and solution I get the returning crap that I feel that I absolutely do not deserve.
I have been taking in alot lately and just that bit more actually put me over the wall. And for those who think that by running away from reality your life would be better then go right ahead. I have had enough. Change can only begin when you start with yourself that is why change starts with the Man in the Mirror or women to be fair in today's context when men and women are equal.
Don't think that by being so noble and generous you can always solve problems, sometimes problems means being honest and face facts and be ready to deal with the real world. The fact of this world is this, life is never easy but the important thing is learning how to deal. There is no such thing as perfection but perfection is how you view it. There is no such thing as perfect happiness in any situation but its how you deal and view any moment. To me the perfect moment is when I have Elayna in my arms and she is hugging me back and my hubby holding me close. That is perfection to my family life.
Well others is just how I deal with any situation. Perfection is in the eye of the beholder very much like how beauty is. Face that man/woman in the mirror and ask yourself how do you want to change and solve your problems. At least I will applaud at your attempt to try. Life is never easy, but its how you deal with it that makes you stronger. Life may throw shit at you but make sure you have a plastic bag to pick it up and throw it down the bin. Or simply, duck. And then pick it up to clear up around you. Life is not about how hard to soft or easy the way is, its how you live with it. How you learn how to deal with any situations. Be strong, be honest and be ready to face the world. And unfortunately, the world is not that perfect yet. Its up to ourselves to make it perfect.
I have been taking in alot lately and just that bit more actually put me over the wall. And for those who think that by running away from reality your life would be better then go right ahead. I have had enough. Change can only begin when you start with yourself that is why change starts with the Man in the Mirror or women to be fair in today's context when men and women are equal.
Don't think that by being so noble and generous you can always solve problems, sometimes problems means being honest and face facts and be ready to deal with the real world. The fact of this world is this, life is never easy but the important thing is learning how to deal. There is no such thing as perfection but perfection is how you view it. There is no such thing as perfect happiness in any situation but its how you deal and view any moment. To me the perfect moment is when I have Elayna in my arms and she is hugging me back and my hubby holding me close. That is perfection to my family life.
Well others is just how I deal with any situation. Perfection is in the eye of the beholder very much like how beauty is. Face that man/woman in the mirror and ask yourself how do you want to change and solve your problems. At least I will applaud at your attempt to try. Life is never easy, but its how you deal with it that makes you stronger. Life may throw shit at you but make sure you have a plastic bag to pick it up and throw it down the bin. Or simply, duck. And then pick it up to clear up around you. Life is not about how hard to soft or easy the way is, its how you live with it. How you learn how to deal with any situations. Be strong, be honest and be ready to face the world. And unfortunately, the world is not that perfect yet. Its up to ourselves to make it perfect.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Time on my own
Well, not that I don't have time on my own. I honestly feel that I would like more time with my baby girl. She is growing so fast that sometimes I get amazed but one thing I do enjoying doing the most is at night before we both go to bed, I will sing her a lullaby to get her to sleep. I will hug her and she will lie on me and I will sing and hum her to sleep. She will always fall asleep and Hubby and I will kiss and tell her that we love her.
She is really adorable. The way she smiles and laughs, every night when I finish off from work, no matter what I know that when i see her I will smile and be happy again. She is my sunshine, my shining light and my little heart. When she touches my face so lightly to feel the way her mummy's face is shaped like, it melts my heart.
No matter how tired I might be from work or from my day, I just know that she looks forward to having me hold her in my arms and singing her to sleep. Now whenever we ask her where's mummy, she knows to turn and look at me. Awwww.....melts my heart.
Love you Elayna. Good night and sweet dreams.
She is really adorable. The way she smiles and laughs, every night when I finish off from work, no matter what I know that when i see her I will smile and be happy again. She is my sunshine, my shining light and my little heart. When she touches my face so lightly to feel the way her mummy's face is shaped like, it melts my heart.
No matter how tired I might be from work or from my day, I just know that she looks forward to having me hold her in my arms and singing her to sleep. Now whenever we ask her where's mummy, she knows to turn and look at me. Awwww.....melts my heart.
Love you Elayna. Good night and sweet dreams.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Humpty Dumpty
Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall
All the Kings' Horses and all the Kings' Men
Couldn't put Dumpty together again.
Very very real in reality. This rhyme is a rhyme to all children as a warning that if you are not careful, one day you might fall and if you fall there might not be a next time anymore.
HD is an egg, a fragile giant size egg. very much like human physiology. Fragile, of cos nothing like the human spirit which is tough and determined. In any case, HD is a thrill seeker who enjoys nothing more than improving his balance by sitting on a wall. One day, while he was practising he swung too hard and fell off the wall. Unlike other times where the Kings' Men could put him together. This time, he broke into many, many small pieces, they just can't seem to put him back together.
HD forgot that he needed the Kings' Men to put him together so he kept going and going to the wall to swing and swing. what he doesn't realise is, there will come a day when the Kings' Men can't put him together again cos he does not allow himself to be put back together fully before going back to the wall to swing.
So the result is the final fall he has, he broke into even smaller pieces that even the best of Kings' Men cannot put him back together again.
The End
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall
All the Kings' Horses and all the Kings' Men
Couldn't put Dumpty together again.
Very very real in reality. This rhyme is a rhyme to all children as a warning that if you are not careful, one day you might fall and if you fall there might not be a next time anymore.
HD is an egg, a fragile giant size egg. very much like human physiology. Fragile, of cos nothing like the human spirit which is tough and determined. In any case, HD is a thrill seeker who enjoys nothing more than improving his balance by sitting on a wall. One day, while he was practising he swung too hard and fell off the wall. Unlike other times where the Kings' Men could put him together. This time, he broke into many, many small pieces, they just can't seem to put him back together.
HD forgot that he needed the Kings' Men to put him together so he kept going and going to the wall to swing and swing. what he doesn't realise is, there will come a day when the Kings' Men can't put him together again cos he does not allow himself to be put back together fully before going back to the wall to swing.
So the result is the final fall he has, he broke into even smaller pieces that even the best of Kings' Men cannot put him back together again.
The End
Saturday, July 18, 2009
posting from my mobile
how in the world did i manage to post frm my mobile.Hubby got me the N86.I have been trying out new things like surfing frm mobile.anyway,until i go on lappy,im too tired to log on nw.i'll set up mobile blogging later.gd nite everyone.thank u dear for my new mobile.muacksz!
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Michael Jackson R.I.P 1958 - 2009
Michael Jackson was laid to rest today at 50 years old, it was a sad, sad, sad day for all music fans around the world today.. Like many others around the world, I am watching the memorial and listened to his friends say the good things about him, reminisce his life and their memories of him and sing songs to celebrate and show the world who he really is.
I am sadden that Elayna would never be able to see such an amazing performer ever again. He was the King, he was the world's greatest entertainer, the world bowed at his feet whenever he sang and performed. I remember when I was old enough to know, the first few songs I loved was Michael Jackson's Heal the World. That was the first time I knew that music could be used for good things. When I first learnt that music could have stories, I watched Thriller. I was in a wonderland. As I sing to Elayna each day, although I may not sing the songs I used to sing but I know that one day she will ask me, " Mummy, who sang that ABC song?"
When I first learnt racial divide, I heard Black & White and I learnt that everyone was created equal. Men, women, children, people of different color, people of different languages they are no different. He reminded many people that he was only human and that everyone have every right to be who they are and not be subjected to every single aspect and second of their life under scrutiny in the song Scream with his sister Janet Jackson. It was there I learnt that music can be used to express fear, anger and despair at life as long as we are able to hold firm and stay strong with our family we can be strong.
Will you be there, taught me vulnerability, I am allowed to be vulnerable but hold strong at the same time. His music gave me strength, through the vulnerability that he showed the world, he gave others strength. He was that kind of person. He wore his heart on his sleeve and taught the world how to live through his songs. He was a generous man. He believed in the world and the world believed back.
His music told stories, his music flowed with emotions that filled my soul and taught the world that music can break all walls and barriers. He sang with love, passion, sorrow, anger but never hate. He showed that music could flow with emotions, could be filled with love. That is what I would want to give to Elayna. Music with love and passion that I can ever give her.
I am a fan and I still will even as he passes on. His music, his legacy will live on. I will let Elayna hear his songs, learn the words, sing his songs and share with her what I loved about him and his music. He gave his life for the music, he gave his life to the world. He lives in everyone, for he is everyone. He is the greatest performer and musician that ever lived and this planet had ever seen.
I am sadden that Elayna would never be able to see such an amazing performer ever again. He was the King, he was the world's greatest entertainer, the world bowed at his feet whenever he sang and performed. I remember when I was old enough to know, the first few songs I loved was Michael Jackson's Heal the World. That was the first time I knew that music could be used for good things. When I first learnt that music could have stories, I watched Thriller. I was in a wonderland. As I sing to Elayna each day, although I may not sing the songs I used to sing but I know that one day she will ask me, " Mummy, who sang that ABC song?"
When I first learnt racial divide, I heard Black & White and I learnt that everyone was created equal. Men, women, children, people of different color, people of different languages they are no different. He reminded many people that he was only human and that everyone have every right to be who they are and not be subjected to every single aspect and second of their life under scrutiny in the song Scream with his sister Janet Jackson. It was there I learnt that music can be used to express fear, anger and despair at life as long as we are able to hold firm and stay strong with our family we can be strong.
Will you be there, taught me vulnerability, I am allowed to be vulnerable but hold strong at the same time. His music gave me strength, through the vulnerability that he showed the world, he gave others strength. He was that kind of person. He wore his heart on his sleeve and taught the world how to live through his songs. He was a generous man. He believed in the world and the world believed back.
His music told stories, his music flowed with emotions that filled my soul and taught the world that music can break all walls and barriers. He sang with love, passion, sorrow, anger but never hate. He showed that music could flow with emotions, could be filled with love. That is what I would want to give to Elayna. Music with love and passion that I can ever give her.
I am a fan and I still will even as he passes on. His music, his legacy will live on. I will let Elayna hear his songs, learn the words, sing his songs and share with her what I loved about him and his music. He gave his life for the music, he gave his life to the world. He lives in everyone, for he is everyone. He is the greatest performer and musician that ever lived and this planet had ever seen.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Life as at today
I think I have quite abit of pent up anger from alot things happening to me lately. It involves people being blind, involves my own inability to wake up eariler and my other faults and expectations.
I think I am a pretty capable person, I am described as quite self discipline by my family members and I am also known as quite a picky or fussy person. Other things that people know about me also involve me being quite spoilt (what to do, only child what), demanding and extra cautious. I am not the type who would throw caution to the wind and would always do my best whenever I am tasked with something. But somehow, I have been letting go of myself lately. Like today, i sent and email with the same contents 2x to my colleague, I was so so "all around" the place at work that people who see me at work ask me, why isn't there anyone helping you? That is one question I cannot answer and I just smile and think positive.
I really should get my ass working harder than ever and the thought that keeps me going like this is my baby girl. I know that what I do now is ever more important not only to keep our family as a well maintained dual income family(only heaven knows we need more) but also to be who I am as a better example to my girl that, women are capable of better. No longer are we the stay at home types and we are able to do more than ever. Balancing home and work with ease, especially with extra hands at home. No man or in this case woman is an island. Good teamwork is essential for things to happen.
I firmly believe in living and working by example. But the worse part is, I do not wish to have too much time taken away from my baby girl especially when she is so so young. Her formative years are now where I will see her growing up and developing a personality of her own. And now is the time where, having a mommy influence is important. I just hope that I have enough time with her.
My life as at today is one of the most fufilling and important times for me. I hope to be able to spend time with her and H together as a family more often. Its really just a matter of managing it, but to be fair which I always try to be it often serves to put me at a disadvantage no matter which way I see it. H often says when can I start thinking for myself on what I want more often for a change. I really don't know, I think my personality does not allow for me to be selfish and uncaring. But I can be a real cynical person at times who has a B**** mode if trodden on will appear and please back off.
There all different kinds of people in this world, the hard part is understanding what works the best for everyone and trying to create a standard. But the problem is, not everyone can be the same, its up to you to find the balance for everyone. Everyone is different so try to understand that there may be different means to an end for any person or situation so deal with it.
I think I am a pretty capable person, I am described as quite self discipline by my family members and I am also known as quite a picky or fussy person. Other things that people know about me also involve me being quite spoilt (what to do, only child what), demanding and extra cautious. I am not the type who would throw caution to the wind and would always do my best whenever I am tasked with something. But somehow, I have been letting go of myself lately. Like today, i sent and email with the same contents 2x to my colleague, I was so so "all around" the place at work that people who see me at work ask me, why isn't there anyone helping you? That is one question I cannot answer and I just smile and think positive.
I really should get my ass working harder than ever and the thought that keeps me going like this is my baby girl. I know that what I do now is ever more important not only to keep our family as a well maintained dual income family(only heaven knows we need more) but also to be who I am as a better example to my girl that, women are capable of better. No longer are we the stay at home types and we are able to do more than ever. Balancing home and work with ease, especially with extra hands at home. No man or in this case woman is an island. Good teamwork is essential for things to happen.
I firmly believe in living and working by example. But the worse part is, I do not wish to have too much time taken away from my baby girl especially when she is so so young. Her formative years are now where I will see her growing up and developing a personality of her own. And now is the time where, having a mommy influence is important. I just hope that I have enough time with her.
My life as at today is one of the most fufilling and important times for me. I hope to be able to spend time with her and H together as a family more often. Its really just a matter of managing it, but to be fair which I always try to be it often serves to put me at a disadvantage no matter which way I see it. H often says when can I start thinking for myself on what I want more often for a change. I really don't know, I think my personality does not allow for me to be selfish and uncaring. But I can be a real cynical person at times who has a B**** mode if trodden on will appear and please back off.
There all different kinds of people in this world, the hard part is understanding what works the best for everyone and trying to create a standard. But the problem is, not everyone can be the same, its up to you to find the balance for everyone. Everyone is different so try to understand that there may be different means to an end for any person or situation so deal with it.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Talking and dancing Elmo
Its been quite some time. any case, saw transformers! It was so so so good!Loved the entire movie, though the ending was abit anti climatic. A good movie to watch if you are looking for great entertainment for a solid 2.5-3hrs.
What happens next is Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Have already made a date with my aunt and H to catch the movie. I know it will be good...
Now for a mommy with a 4mth old daughter, I think I have had it easy. Its cos of my aunt who has been helping me alot. Really appreciate everything that I have and my daughter has. My aunt was searching high and low for her for the talking and dancing elmo. We were wondering where there would be. We visited Toys r Us and didn't imagine that its all sold out.
Well, whatever it is. I am happy and thankful that I have received so much and am grateful for it all.
What happens next is Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. Have already made a date with my aunt and H to catch the movie. I know it will be good...
Now for a mommy with a 4mth old daughter, I think I have had it easy. Its cos of my aunt who has been helping me alot. Really appreciate everything that I have and my daughter has. My aunt was searching high and low for her for the talking and dancing elmo. We were wondering where there would be. We visited Toys r Us and didn't imagine that its all sold out.
Well, whatever it is. I am happy and thankful that I have received so much and am grateful for it all.
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